I feel helpless. My aunt is in a coma, my other aunt had a heart attack. Work sucks. I have no friends. And I am emotionally and physically tired. Maybe I shouldn't complain about how much or more like how hard it is to live my live right now. It just hurts to breathe right now. I don't know what to do or say anymore. It's just been a hectic few days and I am totally lost right now. I have no sense of time. I haven't had a proper meal in days. This moment will pass, I just don't know when exactly. When will everything be normal again? Or will it ever be normal? So many questions, no answers. And then theres this guy..who is wonderful then theres another guy who isn't quite as wonderful. Which one do I choose? Or maybe I shouldn't choose either, b/c I don't think they make me happy. Sometimes..I wish my life was a soap opera. I wish someone else was making all the decisions for me, so I won't have to make them. Just give me the script.  For the past 18 years, I have celebrated Christmas with my aunt. She always arrives at 10:30 am. Always. She brings the best dessert. And I love watching her open presents because she loves every single thing you get her, well at least she acts like she does. The doctors have been saying she is brain dead. She is not breathing on her own at all. She is on life support. It's just today, it finally hit. She won't be here this Christmas. I've had a lot of family members die. Most died before I was born, but in the past 5 years, 2 people have died that mean the world to me. One actually died 14 months ago. I'm still not over that and now I have to deal with this. This situation has reminded me of the whole Michael thing on General Hospital. Its just that my aunt won't go away to a hospital and come back 10 years older and better looking like he will, she will and is going to die..I mean she is dead. Brain dead. All we have to do is turn off those machines and the Dr. said in about 30 mins she will be dead. We just don't want to turn off the machines just yet. I guess we are waiting for our miracle or recast.

Yay! Another post!

Well, I watched Dancing with the Stars last night. I have to say, Jason didn't do to hot. But I don't think he will go home. Either Mario or the girl from Hairspray will go. Tonight is the 100th episode! I can't wait! But it's going to run into my American Idol time because Dancing is 2 hours tonight. I think I'm just going to have to not watch American Idol.

The New Orleans Hornets won the basketball game last night! I'm so proud/happy! I guess no one besides people in New Orleans know how much a teams win can mean especially in our horrible state. It's like, wow, things can be good for us. It gives us hope and things to talk about other than Katrina or insurance problems. Even almost 3 years later, thats all we talk about is that damn hurricane! Now if only the Saints can win some games when football season comes along!

My aunt is in the hospital We are going to see her in a couple of hours. Yesterday she had her gallbladder taken out. But  she isn't doing to good right now. She keeps throwing up blood. So they called and told us that we better go see her. In June, we are all supposed to go to Branson, Mo together, so I hope she gets better so she can go!

My last final is Friday! Yay! I will be soo excited when school is DONE! Well, I have to go to work now.

I totally forgot about this blog. I've been super busy with school and work that I don't even watch to much tv anymore but thats all about to change. No more school for 4 months, yep 4 whole months of relaxing, vacations, sleeping late and all the tv I can handle!

Of course, I'm still watching Days of our Lives. I love that Nicole is back and I love nuJohn even more. I was kinda upset over the whole Brady rehab thing and that Victor knew this whole time! Chelsea and Daniel are just not working for me. I can sorta get on the Stephanie and Max train, but I will never ever accept it 100% due to the fact that Max was RAISED as a BRADY. But they are having some cute moments. I am LOVING Ava's dad. I was not totally shocked that he knew Kate back in the day either. I can't wait to see more of him.

Now, for GH. I have to admit, I have not been watching. Ever since Michael got shot, it's been hard for me to watch. GH used to be such a good soap, and it specializes in mob shootings/family reactions/just good plain action. Lately, I have not been seeing that. Where is Michaels family at during this? Bobbie and Mike showed up once. Luke and Lucky dont even remember that they are related. Its all Jason, Carly, and Sonny with some Jax and Kate. This could have been a great story, if told right. They could have played the Q card here,which they never do. Michael has a connection to almost everyone on the show and yet no one beside the previous mentioned trio, has been seen at the hospital. Jason and Liz have been dropped like a hot potato. Maxie is the ONLY thing I enjoy. Lulu pisses me off everyone she is on my screen. Claudia today made me turn my tv off, esp. after her lil "speech" to Kate. Ugh. GH is becoming rather annoying and yet they wonder why they didn't get any Emmy nomination's. They have nothing to be proud of. Out of all of the ABC soaps, I think GH is the worst. I thought I would never ever say that but its true.

Other than soaps, I've been watching Dancing w/ the Stars and American Idol. Dancing w/ the Stars is soo much fun to watch! I love it and the RIGHT people go home when they should unlike on Idol. My favorite star is Jason..the football player. He is soo good and soo good looking. My least favorite is Shannon Elizabeth. She just bothers me for some reason. On Idol, well its about time Brooke went home. I have a feeling its going to be both Davids left standing, which isn't a bad thing. I'm just mad because Michael Johns should have never went home before Brooke. Now if both Davids are going to be in the finals, well I want David Cook to win. The other David is good but but not as good as David Cook.

More to come later..

Well, I'm on my way to go take my history final, I just thought I would update before I leave! I hope I get a good grade, I studied a lot for this test! Anyway, Days is AWESOME, well, its about to be AWESOME!!! I was kinda mad about Samis wediding, hardly anyone was there, and no mention of her brother Eric or Lucas's grandmaw Alice! But before I know it, I will have Anna, Tony, Bart, Stefano, and LEXIE on my screen! yayyy! I'm so exited! Now to GH, I love me some Jason and Liz, I just wish the secert was out already so Jason and Liz can bond with their child with no one bothering them and honestly thats the only good thing on GH right now! I hate the Jerry/Robin/Patrick/Nicholas/Emily stuff, and the Sam and ugly Amelia thing, but I do like Kate/Sonny! She will be a good match for Carly! I just hope Carly doesn't get jealous and overprotecive cause I really can't handle that right now! Well its time for me to go! Wish me luck!

Well, I know I haven't updated my blog in a while but I've just been sooo busy! I finally had a day off of work so I got a chance to watch my soaps today!! Well, Days is Days lol. I love this show to death and I can't wait for Tony and my main man Bart to come back! I even marked my calendar and everything! Also, Addriene is almost on our screens just another week or so!! I'm so excited! Anyway, I heard Willow is leaving! I don't like the character but who is going to be the bad girl now? Chelsea again? This whole Sami/Lucas/EJ thing is kinda boring or well stupid in other words. But enough about that, GH is just as bad. Carly makes me mad, can't stand her. When is Sam and Lucky going to find out the truth? Why can't Elizabeth and Jason just be together already (tomorrow is an important day for Liason fans, Liz tells Jason she loves him) And this whole Sam hero story has to GO! I actually fell asleep watching Amelia and Sam talk it was that boring. Anyway, Greys Anatomy is a new episode tonight!!! woohoo! And Sanjaya (don't know how to spell his name) went home!!! I was sooo happy last night. On to a sad note, I'm thinking and praying for all of the VT students and families. Last summer I was in Blacksburg, VA and it was a really nice town with uber nice people. My hearts go out to them. It just reminds me that this could happen to anyone. When I was in high school, we had a bomb scare and that was really scary, I just can't imagine going through an ordeal like this one. Well, I have to work tomorrow and I have school and I dunno what the weekend holds for me since my manager hasn't given me my schedule yet, hopefully I will be off (yeah right) Well, I'm going pop some popcorn and get ready for Christina and Burke to heat up my tv screen. Good night!